I'm not a resolution maker (not even a resolution maker's son!), but I have started making some decisions.
There! I've decided to make some decisions!
I'm making New-Year decisions!
I've decided that not only do I need to take control of certain things, but that I actually can take control of certain things.
And I've started already. Tonight. It's been a while since I left someone speechless on the other end of a phone! Nothing big, just a big ol' 'NO' from me, (out loud instead of in my head, and then regretting it!) he just didn't expect it from an 'agreeable' fella like meself!
And it felt good.
Don't worry friends, it's not 'NO MORE MR. NICEGUY', I can't help being such a sweetheart, (chuckle) that's in my very nature/nurture. But it's time this man started being nice to hisself.
Many years ago, before I found the courage to stand in front of people and sing/perform, I used to sing 'in the privacy of my own bedroom' as they say.
One of the performers who influenced me was James Taylor. I would record myself singing along with his songs on my tiny little cassette recorder, have a listen and then immediately delete it just in case it got into the wrong hands! Though he will never know it, James Taylor was the person who made me want to sing. And just listening to him again recently made me realise why I wanted to sing, and what I wanted to sing, and this is part of the reason for my new decision making.
This is one of the songs I used to sing, time to start again.
(Isn't it ironic how such a gentle man might be the cause of me telling people to fuck-off!)
Oh, and the 'Wind-Pain'? had lunch in Subway today with Helena, man that place makes me fart!
wonderful story - with a lesson we all need to learn - to be nice to ourSELF - learning to say no to others is something i struggle with daily - in terms of jamesboy - dear heavens - yes, i certainly can hear you in his music - your beautiful voice is so well suited for that style - interestingly, as i was listening to mccartney earlier over and over doing golden slumbers, i thought the same thing of that particular piece - so, do let us hear your taylor self - and soon! love the irony of the gentle man thing! way to go! ;)
ReplyDeletei knew i liked you for a reason, bubba ;) besides you being your most pleasant self!! xoxoxoxo
ReplyDelete"Wind-pain"... ack! The cat just did the same thing, while belly up in my lap as I type!!! Nothing much worse than kitty farts. :-\
ReplyDeleteI've loved James Taylor for years, and can see how his mellow voice could get you started. And whatever it takes to get you treating your own self better is what it takes. Everybody has to learn to say no at times. Glad you did before it was too late!! xoxoxo
It's surprisingly hard to say no...(good thing I wasn't born a woman eh?) A battle many of us fight and lose over and over again throughout life. I find as I get older that I'm just so sick of putting up with imbeciles that I find it easier to say NO..
ReplyDeleteWind and pain everywhere yesterday Maps!
ReplyDeleteNow you can't blame Subway for it all!
Happy new you!
revolution is in the air alright! It's about time we all started looking after our heads, because no fecker else is going to do it for us. Just spent some time listening to the plethera of fabulous music on here, there are some truly great things ;)
ReplyDeleteall the best for the New Year from Waaaterforrd.
James Taylor is fabulous!
ReplyDeleteVery soulful .... and that's how I hear you! =)
There's nothing wrong with taking a stand for yourself! Good on ya'!
Oh, I hear you! Do you have any idea how hard it is being raised a "good southern girl" and trying to say "No" above a whisper? (This, of course, excluded the lecture where Dad demanded you yell NO! when boys got ideas...after all, he'd been a boy once). We southern gals were raised not to hurt feelings.
ReplyDeleteTook me a while to understand it's okay to take a deep breath and politely breathe out, "No" in the kindest way possible. As the go-to person in my family, it's got a double whammy effect. :)
Ah, James Taylor. My hero. We still claim that "Carolina in the pines" is about SOUTH Carolina, not that other state. :)
No harm in asserting yourself occasionally and 'no' is quite a valuable word to help to put things straight.
ReplyDeleteSomething has happened to my volume so I can't hear properly. No doubt it will right itself - it usually does.
I do believe kevin21 is blowin' smoke up yer arse there, Map.... Seems he's just full of hot air and nothin' else.
ReplyDeletenever allow your heart govern your mind :) always be in control!
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