Thursday August 4th.
Yesterday.
That's when I got it.
On the toilet of all places!
Death.
There's been just too much of it in my recent life.
Death scared me.
Not just my own, but the deaths of loved ones, people I care for.
The deaths of people I have never met.
I've struggled with it, who hasn't?
And then, an acceptance.
An epiphany, on the toilet.
Ironic?
Now, I feel like a chronic arachnophobic who suddenly feels quite at ease watching the TV while gently stroking a mammoth Tarantula.
Is it age? Probably.
Or experience? Maybe..
Wisdom? A combination of life & experience.
Whatever caused it, I am a more peaceful man today.
A man full of life.
March on. Do not tarry. To go forward is to move toward perfection. March on, and fear not the thorns, or the sharp stones on life's path.
Khalil Gibran
They say cleansing the mind can lead to higher thought... I just didn't think you were that full up that it would take a spell on the toilet to do so!!! ;-)
ReplyDeleteAll kidding aside, we hopefully get wiser as we get older... and I think you did just that, Map. xoxoxo
I've seen enough death to know that I will no be attending my own send-off when the time comes, that's for sure. All that wailing and greeting and carrying on is no for my delicate ears.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about the break in at your house on Tuesday by the way. Siobhan tells me that thieves broke in to your music awards room and stole the entire contents. No doubt the polis will be looking for a suspicious van containing nothing but a large green carpet.
It's a strange feeling when you finally come to terms with death... it comes to us all eventually...but not too soon I hope.
ReplyDeleteI'm getting realistic in my old age. For myself and my loved ones, all I hope for in death is that none of us are alone, or in pain when the moment comes.
ReplyDeleteThen it's a sleep. And we all do sleep already.
Oh yeah, and any hope of big reunions is just so much hoopla.
xoxoxoxox just because!
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Yes it's a great step forward when one gives up fear and dread of what could happen. It wastes so much living time.
ReplyDeletewell, that's quite an epiphany musicman - and how beautifully gibran says it all about all things - it's true so much energy/time are wasted on something about which we can do very little - and how incredible to live in the moment - relishing and actually living the moment - without the burden of thought/fear of the inevitable - besides, with life after this life, there's always tomorrow and another campfire to dance 'round - the philosophy of this gypsy, anyway -
ReplyDelete"Each night, when I go to sleep, I die. And the next morning, when I wake up, I am reborn."
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You obviously 'dumped' away all the toxic waste that had been clogging you up.
One hell of an enema! ;D lol
Pon; It does, we do, and I did! :¬)
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Jimmy; Aye, and I loved that carpet. I don't accept music awards, (I don't trust music award givers, they always have ulterior motives!) At least with carpets you know where you stand! :¬)
Tempo; I hope (and you) I live a long good life my friend. I also hope to make it to Oz someday so keep that beer fridge stocked. :¬)
ReplyDeleteMacy; Yes. To all. :¬)
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sav; Have I told you that I quite like you missus? :¬)
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FishHawk; Welcome to Mapland, and thank you! :¬)
Pat; Not only beautiful but wise into the bargain! :¬)
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GYPSYWOMAN; I'd forgotten how much I enjoyed reading The Prophet. I ordered a new copy online today.
Keep that fire burning, I'll be round for a sing-song soon! :¬)
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BlazngScarlet; Someone's (who shall remain nameless!) mother once said, "there's nothing that can't be cured by havin' a good shit!"
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can't even count the number of copies of prophet that i've had over the years - and still keep one - you know the fire's always burnin' for you and yours over here, musicman!
ReplyDeleteand speakin' of a sing-song, how 'bout for my upcoming birthday next thursday? just bring you and yours and spread the word - all you can eat and drink provided round a blazing fire on the cusp of a full moon - like last year, we'll sing and dance till the mornin' light! see you all then! xoxoxo
Some days life seems so clear....other times, a fog. I think they call those Mondays. ;)
ReplyDeleteGYPSYWOMAN; Why thank you for the invite, wouldn't miss it! (I'll bring some 'special' Irish liquid, the stuff they don't sell in liquor stores!) :¬)
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hope; Yes, and there are times I don't mind losing myself in that fog!
A very happy Anniversary to you & himself! Hope the celebrations are in full swing! :¬)
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Love how you added humour to a morbid topic like death :)
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